Have you ever stopped and just listened to what God is saying to you? That is what I’ve been doing for the month of May.
When it comes to courage, I had to show courage when I had to go back to my orthodontist to find out about treatment for my shifted teeth. I found out that I had to start wearing my retainers full time to try to shift my teeth back to their original position. I will find out, in a few weeks, if I need surgery or not. Ever since that visit to my orthodontist I have been in a body dysmorphic disorder flare. I find myself looking in the mirror judging my appearance wondering if my teeth have moved even just the slightest amount. That is when I hear God refer me back to Psalm 139:11, “Thank you for making me so wonderfully complex! Your workmanship is marvelous—and how well I know it.” God also has taught me that even though others may judge my appearance, it says in (1 Samuel 16:7), … “Don’t judge by his appearance or height, for I have rejected him. The Lord doesn’t make decisions the way you do! People judge by outward appearance, but the Lord looks at a person’s thoughts and intention.” God has shown me that I can finally let go of my body dysmorphic disorder (BDD). I have now found peace with my disorder. I will let you know more about my Orthodontic treatment when I find out more information.
When it comes to self-control, I had to learn to wait for things to happen in my life. For example, I have set a few Financial goals, such as my personal savings. I must slowly put money away to reach them. I will make it though. God has also taught me to continue to have a positive mindset. Right now, I am slowly getting things back together since my hard drive crashed last November. I am working on my book. My goal is to have it ready to present to the Vocational Rehabilitation board in August. It says in Jeremiah 29:11, “For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.”
Joy, in the light of the virus I have started to slow down and learned to enjoy what life has to offer. This month, my grandpa celebrated his 84th birthday. We went out to dinner to one of his favorite restaurants. We both had a fish basket. It was tasty. During my Bible study this month God showed me that I can have emotional peace and I do not have to dwell on the tough stuff. He has showed me that even though I am considered to be labeled as living in “Poverty” I can enjoy being his child and that I can enjoy the little things such as enjoying a nice scent of lavender bubble bath. I am starting to see God’s love around me. All I have to do is stop, listen and look around to find it.
How was May for you? Tell me in the comments below.
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After looking at your picture, you are beautiful! And from reading your other blogs I can see you are beautiful inside also! I have never heard of body dysmorphic disorder but after reading the blog you linked in this one, I think my granddaughter has that! She is beautiful both inside and out but is so critical of herself. She had spinal surgery a few years back it it affect the nerves in her eye, making it droop. It’s hardly noticable and if people don’t know about it, they can’t see it but she is so self conscious. Thank you for this info, we are beautiful to God no matter what.
Thank you for your kind words. Please remember that any medial or mental problem must be diagnosed and treated by a doctor.
Body Dysmorphia is so difficult to deal with. Despite the fact that I see you as a beautiful, strong woman, you don’t see yourself like that. Likewise when people tell me things about me and I don’t see them. It’s hard but it can be managed. Sending you lots of love and thank you so much for being so open and honest!
May was long for us. We have now Stayed Home for 14 weeks because both of us got into 2 vulnerable categories each. We had each other, and isn’t that all we really need? 😎
I agree. 🙂